me and my holiday

i haven't felt worth a shit for a couple of weeks and today woke up with nausea like i haven't had much except in the run-up to the heart event after new orleans --- and feeling light-headed, ennervated, and what not --- martha to the airport anyway, zoomed thru security in 5 min, got to the gate, and a few minutes before boarding, chickened out and canceled the trip --- i have full physical already scheduled for next week, so i'll see what it shows up, and ask doc again about the efficacy of the pile of pills i take every day --- re. the hart, i thought that they fixed everything that needed fixing in december, which adds to my confusion

but i have my nitroglycerin, so i oughta just tough it out and go, i guess