shell-shocked

today has been a bleak and depressing day --- went to bed around 11 when i saw things tanking --- woke up at 2 to find out he in fact had won and the dow futures are off 900 points --- in the end, hillary won the popular vote, while losing the electoral college, and the dow was up 250 --- the world's petty tyrants are congratulating him --- everybody else is waiting to see what this really means --- what it means to me is that the forces of racism, misogyny, and stingy politics are in full control --- president, senate, house, and most likely the supreme court for the rest of my lifetime ---

and then nephew jeff's girl friend this morning:  "And Jeff is smiling. The epitome of uneducated white male privilege who didn't even vote, has never voted, is thrilled because he understands trumps supporters and simply thinks Clinton is "a cunt". I find all of this beyond terrifying"

followed by his thoughts on facebook:

i don't know him anymore












i'm not sure that i chose the right time to try to cut back on the anti-depressants, also --- and however

Nothing is ever properly unbearable, not least because we always retain access to the best escape route.